Some Kind of Wonderful

Second Life is a strange and wonderful place where I sometimes meet people who have the ability to embed themselves into my first life so completely that I wonder how I lived without them.

So to those of you who claim that SL is just a game... that SL is SL and RL is RL and ne'er shall the two meet, I challenge you to take a risk.

Infuse your cartoon with your RL emotions. Treat the people who you meet inworld with respect. Stop using the "game" as a dumping ground for your emotional garbage and negativity and ridicule of others.

True courage is taking the risk to be your RL self inworld, to let yourself love and be loved.

Simply put...

Polyamory is NOT womanizing.

/me sighs.

You write better than I, and I love you for it. You understand more about life and living and the way things are, and I love you for it. You have been through more hurt then I think that I could ever imagine, and I love you for it. I want to find you lying in my bed, to run my fingers through your hair, to softly kiss your lips, to wrap myself in the warmth of your arms. But that will never happen, and I hate you for it.

Poly(amorous) Anna

I am beginning to accept that in SL I am a “poly” person insofar as my desire to explore "sex" with others while being “committed” to a primary partner is concerned. My accepting this about myself is not always easy, and I still have issues with being honest and open with my primary partner about my “poly” nature without feeling guilty or without feeling that I am some how deliberately upsetting him.

So, I tend to react negatively to his giving me permission (blessing?) to explore others and have trouble letting go enough to enjoy this freedom -- even though I do appreciate the tremendous amount of trust he puts in me, and it is exactly what I want.

Although I know that for myself, my secondary explorations have no effect whatsoever on my commitment to or depth of feeling for my primary partner (if anything, they strengthen my feelings) -- I am not able to understand that the same may be true for him. So when he shows any sort of interest in someone else, I react jealously out of insecurity and fear.

Rationally, I know that my jealous feelings and reactions are not fair to him and hope that in time, I will learn to give him the same amount of trust, freedom, and support that he gives to me.